The woods are gone now. Decimated and paved to winding roads and large homes adorned with grotesques on pedestals in the front of reaching driveways. But at one time, it was, and in my memory, still succeeds to be, a home where brush and trees swooned and it keeps within the overhanging branches around it's perimeter, fiercely, a portion of my still beating heart.
I used to walk there with my grandparents, and my Father, I'm told, used to roam the trail between here and there with his friends. We built forts, all of us, out of fallen wood and open oak hollows, and sometimes boards from the community when they could be found, though all at
I crawled from out the ether
to a home in medieval mortar
and tragic, Roman Vestals praying;
daring darkness 'round a hearth.
A long and voiceless elegy
carried me far into perdition,
as I gazed upon the firestones,
and they dug me down to death.
Beyond the thread accosted,
dreaming through an ivory gate,
I saw the terror of the Vestibule,
the despairing plight of my ghost-to-be.
I lifted off my knees,
removed the religion from my soul,
and walked, and walked, and walked,
on a trail of asphodels; straight into a wood.
Enchanted in fractured moon-glow,
Artemis cracked the birch to speak,
called a sleeping thrush to hum,
and
As we sat in silence, child small,
we made shadow puppets on the wall;
and with our right hands, fingers arched,
good lord! We made a heart.
But as soon as our fingers touched,
as though preconceived, all at once,
our hands gave a jerking start;
and we each tore it half apart.
So many times it's come undone
and I've fought for love and hardly won,
but it's never, ever been much fun,
at least not half as much as breaking fingers
on a wall,
sitting in a silent hallway,
waving candles,
child small.
From hands wrought with decay,
I sculpted you from the deepest, red clay
and shaped your form in funeral pyres;
raised you up with damaged hands,
out the dead-man's fire.
I sutured your sides with my own hair,
bound your limbs and threaded together tears,
and I beat you so you would soften up
then pulled over the clay; filled it,
with my own skin; with my own blood.
And as we sat below amorphous skies,
I poured sand into your empty eyes,
until they overflowed into building dunes,
turned to glass, and shone like diamonds;
like stars from out a darkened room.
And I built your soul from memories,
sought out from days so heavenl
I dreamt of the wood and you
dying in darkness, entombed
by laced up, matted moss,
surrounded by snow-broken limbs,
and swaying tree-tops.
I buried you beneath the peaks
for you to seek some semblance of peace
in growing, restless tides
moving on through salt and silence
and trailing moon light.
Years inside this porous dream
I stayed; not content to leave,
Praying upon your extempore tomb,
every day, until from the dirt
you were exhumed.
(Then)
I dreamt you to an emerald bloom,
bathed you in light from amiable moons
placed you within a field of empyrean clouds,
made your arms thin birch,
your eyes hazel boughs.
The child shurked the clothed claws, chin up.
Her eyes blown up, broken eggs,
her hands high kites - and they soar,
swaying and crashing into power-lines.
Her smile broad, her Mother thunder-scared.
The world is melting into wire frames,
changing seasons in color photo moments,
but Mother fears for that shaking sickness;
tells the girl to drop her gaze, fly her feet,
and make her way inside.
Tiny steps turn melodies and wet windows write glass harmony,
the monster halo flipped it's wire - called the wind within it's arms,
broke out her finger prison and flew miles and miles
and miles; to the lightning tip, to sky teeth, to that
If you've heard of me
you've sifted through
trees and twine,
crawled into paper hollows
and followed a whisper
on an empty night -
Sailed to me
by waning candle-light
in the midst of a growing storm;
followed that call into exodus
to a far off, foreign shore.
See,
I have spent my life bending ink
and rigged this thing to blow,
built the cannons, aimed real high
and I've filled my words to float -
but my one true dream relies on you;
you, and you alone,
to pick apart all I ever wrote
and let me live, forever,
as a quote.
I am as advantageous as a wishing well,
as stoic as a dream in Hell;
festered up with love and metal faces,
an aspiring child's hope and silver pieces,
but though they bar themselves from speaking secrets
I will always let them down.
My lost affection was chained to an angel disguised;
A prophet who fell from an open, hallowed sky
remaining upon the beach in throes with the swells,
her heart beating in time with those majestic bells,
and from out her lips, spinning stories, she tells
of Arcadia.
Long she stayed on the blazing, sand knolls
speaking sometimes in old, stone, cathedral tones,
and I asked her on what principle a
I want you to be my Judas,
my plague; my hollow wind.
I want your subtle madness
inked upon roads; dragged upon skin.
I want such haunted beauty,
it aspires; it transcends,
the forms we lay in open ground,
shallow graves; plots of men.
I want such bloody love,
such devastation; such devotion,
to never regret the cogs we turned in life,
that we designed; we set in motion.
Finally, I want a tortured soul,
to repair; to piece together,
to tread upon a lake of fire that never quells;
that flows and burns
(forever)
I often feel like candle wax; like water treading in a lake.
I am the pumping, noxious heart of all empty things
carrying time and dwelling in the folds of its constant flow
and in that I exist, but barely.
Ink is my brooding malice and paper my dying mirth
and at times they whisper to fill one up with bad poetry
and malformed verse.
Tonight, they say,
I am vicarious coffin weight,
decaying social grace,
and the lungs of a monster, breathing shallow
just before it screams.
The woods are gone now. Decimated and paved to winding roads and large homes adorned with grotesques on pedestals in the front of reaching driveways. But at one time, it was, and in my memory, still succeeds to be, a home where brush and trees swooned and it keeps within the overhanging branches around it's perimeter, fiercely, a portion of my still beating heart.
I used to walk there with my grandparents, and my Father, I'm told, used to roam the trail between here and there with his friends. We built forts, all of us, out of fallen wood and open oak hollows, and sometimes boards from the community when they could be found, though all at
I crawled from out the ether
to a home in medieval mortar
and tragic, Roman Vestals praying;
daring darkness 'round a hearth.
A long and voiceless elegy
carried me far into perdition,
as I gazed upon the firestones,
and they dug me down to death.
Beyond the thread accosted,
dreaming through an ivory gate,
I saw the terror of the Vestibule,
the despairing plight of my ghost-to-be.
I lifted off my knees,
removed the religion from my soul,
and walked, and walked, and walked,
on a trail of asphodels; straight into a wood.
Enchanted in fractured moon-glow,
Artemis cracked the birch to speak,
called a sleeping thrush to hum,
and
As we sat in silence, child small,
we made shadow puppets on the wall;
and with our right hands, fingers arched,
good lord! We made a heart.
But as soon as our fingers touched,
as though preconceived, all at once,
our hands gave a jerking start;
and we each tore it half apart.
So many times it's come undone
and I've fought for love and hardly won,
but it's never, ever been much fun,
at least not half as much as breaking fingers
on a wall,
sitting in a silent hallway,
waving candles,
child small.
From hands wrought with decay,
I sculpted you from the deepest, red clay
and shaped your form in funeral pyres;
raised you up with damaged hands,
out the dead-man's fire.
I sutured your sides with my own hair,
bound your limbs and threaded together tears,
and I beat you so you would soften up
then pulled over the clay; filled it,
with my own skin; with my own blood.
And as we sat below amorphous skies,
I poured sand into your empty eyes,
until they overflowed into building dunes,
turned to glass, and shone like diamonds;
like stars from out a darkened room.
And I built your soul from memories,
sought out from days so heavenl
I dreamt of the wood and you
dying in darkness, entombed
by laced up, matted moss,
surrounded by snow-broken limbs,
and swaying tree-tops.
I buried you beneath the peaks
for you to seek some semblance of peace
in growing, restless tides
moving on through salt and silence
and trailing moon light.
Years inside this porous dream
I stayed; not content to leave,
Praying upon your extempore tomb,
every day, until from the dirt
you were exhumed.
(Then)
I dreamt you to an emerald bloom,
bathed you in light from amiable moons
placed you within a field of empyrean clouds,
made your arms thin birch,
your eyes hazel boughs.
The child shurked the clothed claws, chin up.
Her eyes blown up, broken eggs,
her hands high kites - and they soar,
swaying and crashing into power-lines.
Her smile broad, her Mother thunder-scared.
The world is melting into wire frames,
changing seasons in color photo moments,
but Mother fears for that shaking sickness;
tells the girl to drop her gaze, fly her feet,
and make her way inside.
Tiny steps turn melodies and wet windows write glass harmony,
the monster halo flipped it's wire - called the wind within it's arms,
broke out her finger prison and flew miles and miles
and miles; to the lightning tip, to sky teeth, to that
If you've heard of me
you've sifted through
trees and twine,
crawled into paper hollows
and followed a whisper
on an empty night -
Sailed to me
by waning candle-light
in the midst of a growing storm;
followed that call into exodus
to a far off, foreign shore.
See,
I have spent my life bending ink
and rigged this thing to blow,
built the cannons, aimed real high
and I've filled my words to float -
but my one true dream relies on you;
you, and you alone,
to pick apart all I ever wrote
and let me live, forever,
as a quote.
I am as advantageous as a wishing well,
as stoic as a dream in Hell;
festered up with love and metal faces,
an aspiring child's hope and silver pieces,
but though they bar themselves from speaking secrets
I will always let them down.
My lost affection was chained to an angel disguised;
A prophet who fell from an open, hallowed sky
remaining upon the beach in throes with the swells,
her heart beating in time with those majestic bells,
and from out her lips, spinning stories, she tells
of Arcadia.
Long she stayed on the blazing, sand knolls
speaking sometimes in old, stone, cathedral tones,
and I asked her on what principle a
I want you to be my Judas,
my plague; my hollow wind.
I want your subtle madness
inked upon roads; dragged upon skin.
I want such haunted beauty,
it aspires; it transcends,
the forms we lay in open ground,
shallow graves; plots of men.
I want such bloody love,
such devastation; such devotion,
to never regret the cogs we turned in life,
that we designed; we set in motion.
Finally, I want a tortured soul,
to repair; to piece together,
to tread upon a lake of fire that never quells;
that flows and burns
(forever)
I often feel like candle wax; like water treading in a lake.
I am the pumping, noxious heart of all empty things
carrying time and dwelling in the folds of its constant flow
and in that I exist, but barely.
Ink is my brooding malice and paper my dying mirth
and at times they whisper to fill one up with bad poetry
and malformed verse.
Tonight, they say,
I am vicarious coffin weight,
decaying social grace,
and the lungs of a monster, breathing shallow
just before it screams.
come back, come back
into the rain
into the fog
into the pain
come back into an empty hole,
into the crack within your soul.
return, return
to lies once dead
to thoughts once gone
to eyes once red
return to dreams consumed by fears,
to pillowcases stained by tears.
Were we split or shaken by qualms and quarrels,
Quaked from boughs in bushels no longer cherished;
Were we rocked from resting upon our laurels,
Laureates perished,
Sense would part from substance, go unattended,
Try to sense itself, but not sensing ever;
Substance lacking sense would be left unmended,
Parted forever:
Blue apart from sky, for the air was looted;
Red not rock nor flame nor a beating bloodline;
Grassless green, the sod and the seed uprooted;
Light without sunshine;
Heat without the sun's heavy tide of summer;
Sweet without a tongue nor a licking lapping;
Beat without the blow of the drum, nor drummer
Steadily clapping.
Coul
I hold my heart when thunder claps,
I hold it when the courier raps
Upon my door — to feel the beat
It often hides — it drums so sweet
And then subsides to tender taps.
My heart is shy when only maps
Can dare expound what hungry gaps
Consume the ground between our feet.
I hold my heart
And tear the envelope that wraps
The lifeblood printed on your scraps
And feed my veins like summer heat
Is supped by rains. Until we meet
At last again when storms collapse,
I hold my heart.
I swallowed stones for a girl once,
tethered a daughter to my arm,
raised her with my own hands,
and pulsed so much blood
through the wire
it became a vein.
Eventually I fell,
slammed to the floor,
like a marionette savagely thrown
against a wall.
My guts were full,
of sediment and
my stomach swelled too much.
I breathed dust and ants,
swallowed as much as I was able,
and tried to get up
with my daughter in tow.
Clumsily falling back over,
with bruised hands and
forced, rough, breathing,
I felt tension
from the other side.
The line pulled taut and hard
and dragged me from its end
across so many splintering boards
I
My poem "Swallow", as suggested by Storyteller21 (https://www.deviantart.com/storyteller21) was featured by thorns (https://www.deviantart.com/thorns) for a Daily Deviation. I couldn't be more grateful to the two of them and I encourage anyone reading to go check out their work.
As far as all the comments go, they've been overwhelmingly positive and it's been a great inspiration. I promise I'll get to responding to them all but it will take some time. Again, I thank you.
Literally just last night I very much considered giving up on writing entirely. I know that others have had a horrible time this year and I would just like you to know that I'm right there with you. With any spare chance I've had I have purs
It was my tenth anniversary on DeviantART the other day. Which means I've been here for just over a decade. Initially I started out just doing whatever - and then I found my calling in writing and continued to hone that until present day. So, if you look hard enough, you can find rather embarrassing early work in my gallery. This includes drawings, graphic art, and really angsty, teen writing.
I also remember what it was like to create groups before this new system where the pages were designed specifically for group use. I'm proud to say that throughout my decade on dA, I've successfully helped several unknown artists become known and even
I often find snippets and poems that I enjoy from various folks here... but your work is very thought-provoking. It's very powerful, and as a visual artist, I am inspired by your work. Your writing is absolutely beautiful, and I am looking forward to the chance to read more of it.
That's a great compliment to hear and I look forward to hopefully inspiring you and everyone as much as I can. I realize that you went out of your way to tell me how much my work meant to you and that, in and of itself, makes it worth it for me.